Journaling: I am afraid of suffocating, I am claustrophobic. I am afraid of somehow 'missing' God, of being one of the ones who think they're saved, but aren't. I'm afraid of losing my husband or my children. But my greatest fear is of failing as a mother in the stewardship of my children. I want so desperately to teach them to make the right choices. I want them to have a lasting and living relationship with God. I know that ultimately they will be responsible for their own choices. But I can't help holding myself responsible if they walk away from God. In the end, all I can do is place them in His hands and trust that he has everything under control and won't let them go.